Tuesday 31 January 2017

A life of never-ending HOPES!!!!!

So I hail from not so orthodox family from south India but yet we were a little orthodox at times!!! as I grew up I learnt  one thing never to be dependent on anyone ! that  was actually a good thing  which I realised later. Through all this I was  still yet to complete my graduation I was "married". My dreams of becoming an advocate had come to stand still! advocate because my father is a renowned  Advocate  and I had a dream to become like him . well it all happened in a jiffy ! I got married and then I completed  my college ! yes those glorious years of my life came to an end . By the time I realised yes I am married now there came a day I  had to bid goodbye  to my relatives my friends and my life in bangalore . I had come to UAE where my husband and in laws are residing . Though I was super excited about UAE I was worried too because my relatives were here and they had set a mindset for me to have enough to have dreams of coming to dubai. I initially felt that pinch of leaving my family back home trust me it's kinda difficult to just leave everything and I had hopes for a better future I spent nearly 5 freaking years!!!! and trust me it was no less than a roller coaster ride to me though my ups and downs everything didn't make sense to me at all ! there were times I was paranoid about the whole idea of being married it drives me mad at times ! my life just took a 360 degree turn and it all happened I had no clue why I was being treated this way I was  taught that this is how a married lady was supposed to do !! it still didn't make sense to me at all! urrrghhh I was wondering what a waste my life was all these thoughts didn't let me sleep in peace then comes my little girl who gave me reason  to give my life a second chance !!! with a little girl and a supportive husband I have started to realise when we kick those thoughts off your head your world is a better place and ignore those people  who let you down they have no right to point fingers at you when they are not perfect !!!!! yes be positive and we are not getting out of the world alive anyway! but I know it's really difficult to stick to this attitude but I didn't have any other choice to give myself another chance to figure out things set them in place !!!! well I hope I accomplish something so even if have something to tell my children about me I can probably be able to give them the best of all that I can and become an inspiration for them but for me my parents , my brothers and my husband had been the inspiration and they remain inspiration plus a wonderful support . Well, this is life, and indeed I have never-ending hopes !!!